The Romantic Dictionary
section iii, 34.5:b
Felix Kramer
the Romantic Dictionary
Ballistic
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adjective
To be in a state in which one's self-destructive identity1 has taken over completely, and one is absolutely desperate to be pinned down and destroyed – in so many words. A dangerous state, linked closely to desoentrudence and desoinviction, and linked fully to a masculine sort of self-identity, far from the pink-surrious states of J██.
  1. as it stands he's become filled with it, so much so that you can call him a z██niac because he's begging to be taken to the back of that blue-stained corner and made another number.
Blacking
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noun
The sensation of being in the presence of 178-2,528 mile walls or buildings inside enclosed, white-walled rooms somehow large enough to hold these structures. This sensation occurs just behind or in front of the eyes, and is sometimes accompanied by the presence of unseen, black-bodied but invisible and formless figures, which talk in a rushed, deep cadence of inneliation. "The blacking overtook him at a young age and with a firmed fervor, and he found himself resistant of it but not unappreciative."
Black Nostalgia
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noun
A desperate nostalgia or longing for a period in life which was, at the time, very unhealthy and painful, but nonetheless held an intoxicating1 high that the years have truly romanticized.
  1. when that certain song plays, he's taken back instantly- sitting in the lecture hall when the lights were just beginning to dim, and dreaming of that person, and wanting nothing more than for the hours to pass, for him to be back in touch, for their words to be exchanged once more; that one who knew too much.
Broleism
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noun
A state of flux within the self. Broleism refers to a type of identity in which personality traits become compartmentalized on a linear scale, often in ways which feel outside of the control of the person experiencing these shifts and which can be quite neurotic or nerve-wracking. In the same way that an individual "gene" makes up "genetics," individual "broles" make up "broleism."
Co-abstraction
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noun
The adoption of outside themes into a personal symbolic/iconographic library. Something become co-abstracted when it is internalized and adopts a meaning specific to the person who has internalized it and allowed it to enter their personal lexicon and mythology.
Conestruction
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noun
The state of pursuing something "from the opposite side" of the self, a kind of reflective self-absorptive perspective, and creating the media stimulus that one perceives themselves as enjoying, particularly "as though" it were found in an outside source; being able to perceive your own interests and what sorts of things one will intuine off of.1
  1. H.S. is an example of a conestructively-created character, as is M.H, and even T. Sejnowski going back to 1999.
Cononarie
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noun
The state of being in search of an every-increasingly dynamic criteria, often relating to the desoinvictive miuraixe structures of thought, to the point of utter unfulfillment as perceived needs grow more and more hyper-specific.
Clanchero
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noun
Two syllables which do not attach together with any sense of fluidity; the opposite of a fluenzo.
De-codesign
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noun
A type of design sense that is not wholly fantastic, but rather, reflects a combination of existing forms. A science-fiction setting which draws heavily upon 1940s designs, for example, could be said to invoke de-codesign aesthetics.
Desoentrudence
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noun
The state of knowing that you are the object of someone's desire, and they find you attractive and in this attraction feel a yearning to cause you pain, to destroy you, to possess you, to control you, and to pick you apart. "He laid his head back, let that hand wrap around his throat, and he became so over-lost in his own desoentrudence."
Desoinviction
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noun
A state in which one desires to be an object of fixation for someone that they find equally fascinating1. An unhealthy yet captivating feeling in which one loses fear of, and perhaps becomes captivated by danger.
  1. and this is one of those days where he wakes up craving it above all else. That person has to be out there somewhere. Has to be watching or waiting in the wings and he's sure of it, if he just keeps at it, that those days will return once more.
Destraderie
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noun
The state of being overtaken with a single-minded sense of moral integrity and an overwhelming passion and drive. This is not a destructive urge, but tends to be associated with war, violence, annihilation and apocalyptic events.
Destrivarance
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noun
A state in which one is searching for something novel, yet has no idea what sort of thing would quell this feeling of yearning. It is a kind of saddened desperation, to be so out of touch with one's own needs and wants.
Estienarie
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noun
A feeling of both fear and anxiety related to one's place in the greater social spectrum. It is a desire to be active in the grand scale, to be open and public in various traits and endeavors, along with a sense of regret for allowing one's shyness and inhibitions to keep one guarded, accompanied by the sensation that time is ticking away and intangible constructs are slipping away. It can be categorized in an obsessive-compulsive family of feelings.
Extric Malaphasia
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noun
A state in which the brain "locks down" from productive thought, with mentally painful symptoms such as an unseen/invisible flickering of color behind the eyes.
Fluenzo
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noun
Two syllables which flow together quite fluidly; the opposite of a clanchero.
Greying
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noun
A sensation which involves a sensation across the skin, not like touch, temperature, or position, so called due to the hard, grey, stone-like "waves" which cover the body in intricately embedded layers, as visible from the mind's eye.
Hesitevrance
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noun
A feeling that catches in the throat when they attempt to undergo a productive creative task, but find themselves mentally blocked despite themselves. Hesitevrance, when pushed, can lead to extric malaphasia.
Hyperexintrivaria
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noun
A state in which all things bleed into one another. Overwhelming; an ever-complex fractal that only spirals further away from the "absolute truth" with each motion. First experienced at age 12 or so, so this is an old terror indeed.
Intric Malaphasia
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noun
A state in which the brain "locks down" due to fatalistic and inescapable dread. Often associated with the state of being whiteshaken.
Intuine
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verb
To perceive something's inner or "intrinsic" nature in a way not readily evident by direct physical characteristics, often revealing traits and imagery highly distinct from the original object. A small piece of green glass, for example, might be intuined as carrying within it a sub-dimension consisting of an endless chemical ocean with small pieces of trash floating in it in irregular formations.
Intuipathy
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noun
An auto-generative creative nature, with persistent intuination of stimuli. One who displays high levels of intuipathy would be an intuipath.
Inneliation
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noun
A frightening voice which occurs inside the mind. It does not speak at all in words but instead talks through a soundless mad ramble in a tone that is both deliberate and furious, overtaken with sickness and insanity. Exclusively male.
Menadesign
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noun
A type of design sense which focuses on permutations and variations of highly focused themes and motifs, taken to a logical and creative extreme.
Miuraixe
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noun
A relationship between two individuals which fulfill a certain irreducible aesthetic, often desoinvictively based.
Paughty
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adjective
An insolent and childish huffiness with the tantrums and foot-stomping to back it up. A pink-skinned and weighty disposition with no substance despite its bulk.
Pink-Surrious
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adjective
The state of being so overcome with inflictive desires as to be maddened from it, lust-crazed and practically drooling or delirious with the feverity of it all.
Rosurience
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noun
A severe combination of unrequited romance, heartbreak, jealousy1. A type of madness that carries with it marks upon the skin2 and a desire to turn this pain outward onto those outside the self. The utter denial of anything but this spurned insanity.
  1. as placed by 666/THE DEVIL and THE KING/THE BEAST.
  2. the Three of Swords, first visited in a modified form in 2000, upon the strongman's arm, and carried on through the Pastoral, Reactionary, and Velvet ages.
Scourient
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adjective
Allowing, either through inaction or compliance, negative things to befall others. Note, however, that despite complacency towards wicked acts, scourient individuals do not willfully hurt others, although their actions and words may cause inadvertent harm to others due to ignorance or self-centeredness.
Stratidetachment
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noun
The state of being detached from reality in such a way that one's physical body and mental self seem to be wholly separate, and not only that, but all innate perception of the world around is lost as well, so that one may perceive themselves as being surrounded by thousands of feet of space on all sides.
Varrisinous
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adjective
Something both captivating and confusing, referring, in particular, to media and narrative. It is the sort of thing that leaves itself contradictory, open-ended, obfuscated and hypnotic all at once. Can be sub-categorized as half-, fully-, et cetera.
White-out
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noun
A sudden wash of feeling that runs just beneath the surface of the skin and collects in the upper limbs, stomach, and with some lightness in the jaw. It is nauseating and disorienting, carrying with it a profound negativity1, a loss of control and a strong undercurrent of acrimony and covetous jealousy.2
  1. this one comes suddenly. it bites its way across the sky like a storm and all the clouds they coagulate just above the muscles, skipping the skin entirely.
  2. May, 16: The First Terrorista.
Whiteshaken
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adjective
The state of being overcome with a numb but cold sensation across the skin and several inches downward, as well, radiating in during moments of stress. Occurs when one feels trapped, and brings with it a great sense of fear. Brings with it a feeling of losing control, and, when this feeling gets bad enough, shaking and detachment from reality can occur, as well.
Zarel
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noun
A brief jolt of disdain and annoyance, a desire to be unpleasant or perhaps even condescending. A natural human emotion but one which all good people understand to let wash away.
Zarel-elicitous
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adjective
Applied to the sort of person who might briefly pull up that feeling of zarel in the self. One must be kind at all times to these people, for what they do, they do not do intentionally.
Zealozoule
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noun
The brief feeling when one compares themselves to another. Sub-categorized as aprez-zealozoule, which is based upon outward appearance, and nivri-zealozoule, which is based upon skill or attention.